Well it is now Tuesday 25th August and I have just returned from Chase Farm Hospital where I saw the Gynae Oncologist - he has referred me to UCLH and told me I will be seen as a matter of urgency. I have been diagnosed with a cervical polyp, thickening of the womb lining and an 11cm ovarian cyst!! A monster growing inside me!!
I am going into CFH on Tuesday 1st Sept to have a hysteroscopy and biopsies carried out under GA and they will send on these results to UCLH in time for my appt.
I am scared witless, terrified, feeling sick and generally sinking deeper and deeper into that black hole. I am not an ignorant person but I DO read the press and am fairly knowledgable when it comes to medical terms etc. UCLH is part of the North London Cancer Network and althoguh I HAVE NOT been diagnosed with cancer the very thought that it MAY be there is scaring the s**t out of me.....will I make it to the wedding, will I be around to see any grandchildren grow up, will I be around when I reach 50 on 21st October???
I have so many what ifs going around my brain right now..........